Why am I Fd up?

Its time once again that the world is telling you to express your undying love to someone by buying them candy, flowers or jewelry…Valentines day. Even though, there really isn’t any definitive idea for whom or even why there is a Valentines day, people celebrate it. The Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred. One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine’s actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Yesterday, I was speaking to a couple of guys about Valentines day. I asked them if they would give a gift to their girlfriends if they weren’t being told to do so by the pressure of society, they both said no. I believe thats the real reason millions of people celebrate most holidays, but especially Valentines day. TO me, like Christmas, its a retail holiday. Walk into any mall and you will see a sea of red with the candy and flowers. Jewelers showcase their most precious gens for you to prove your love to your loved one.
But I ask you if you really truly love someone why do you have to buy them a gift in order to prove it? I don’t believe you do. If you love someone, you will show that to them every day of the year, not just on Valentines day and certainly NOT by buying them a gift. Show them your love by telling them the truth about your feelings. Tell them intimate things about yourself because you know they love you, and they will share their inner most thoughts and feelings with you. Show them your love by lying in bed a few extra minutes before jumping up, look them in the eyes and tell them how much you appreciate every thing they do. Show them you care by holding them close to you, looking in their eyes every day before you part. Love isn’t something you buy. Love is something you feel. If you need someone to give you a gift to prove their love, then you will always NEED bigger, and better gifts for the proof.

Don’t wait for Feb. 14th to express your love, express it on January 3rd, June 17th or Oct. 10th. Find a way every day to let those you love, know you love them. Feb. 14th is just another day. I’m not saying there is anything wrong with sharing an intimate dinner with the one you love tomorrow night, just make sure you share an intimate dinner the next night, the night after that and every night for the rest of the year.

Love is a beautiful, ecstatic, joyous, all-encompassing feeling that is often indescribable, but most importantly it is self contained. It comes standard on all forms of humans. You don’t need anything or anyone outside yourself in order to feel it. So, if tomorrow night is an important holiday to you, and you are not in a relationship at this time, just remember you don’t need anyone else to feel love. Spend the day remembering how great you are, how your smile makes everyone you meet smile, hug yourself, and be your own Valentine!

I just finished watching the movie; “THE HELP” and I can’t stop crying. It hurts my heart so much to think about just how cruel humans are to one other. Watching this movie about the mistreatment of the African American workers of the past, tears holes in my heart. Not just because of the injustice of the past but because of the realization that we are continuing the injustice. Before it was African Americans and women but now it’s the poor. I know the injustice towards those that have lived in poverty has always been around but now there is an epic disproportion of those in poverty so there is an epic disproportion of those being mistreated. There seem to be growing numbers of heartless, selfish, cruel, downright evil human beings that care nothing for their fellow mankind. Where has love and compassion gone?
I know that I’m being exceptionally emotional right now because of the movie, but I feel the need to regurgitate my thoughts and there is no one here for me to talk to, so I decided to write about it.
I’m baffled by how the banksters can look at themselves in the mirror every day and feel good about how they have destroyed other people’s lives. Where is their heart? Where is the compassion? How can they be so cut off from their emotions that they don’t care that millions of people are starving to death?
How do they live with themselves knowing that there are people who can’t afford to keep on their electricity? How can one’s heart become so callous that it can justify living in a New York City Penthouse lavished in gold, knowing all the while, that there are people a short distance away living on the streets. Take some of the gold out of your bathroom, and build a home that could house some of these people. Do you really need a bathroom with a gold sink and toilet? Really?
How does the top 1% live with themselves knowing while they live in their mansions, children and adults are living on the streets or in homeless shelters? How is it possible to be so cold and heartless that you feel good because you are making money off of poor people? How can the banksters feel good about charging people money because they don’t have any? When you have no money in the bank and you bounce a check, they charge you more of what you don’t have, money. When you have money, you get a lower percentage rate of interest on a loan than you do if you don’t make enough money. When you are penalized for not having any money, how are you ever gonna have any money? The situations should be reversed. The more money you have, the more money you should pay for products and services. But instead, the less money you have the more money you have to pay. How is that fair? How is that compassionate? How does that make sense to anyone except those with money?
How does one’s heart become so indifferent that it doesn’t care if people die because they don’t have health insurance? Is having another mansion or another Mercedes so important that you can justify watching your fellow mankind whither away and die because there isn’t enough food to eat? How in God’s name did we get here?
I asked God tonight if the existence of this world was still necessary. I realize I might be a tad bit dramatic but I know the trials and tribulations of our existence will continue until we finally realize that we must love one another as ourselves. My heart hurts so much tonight that I don’t feel that this is now possible. In God’s eyes is the world getting better or worse?
I’ve felt for some time that we humans are learning machines. We are learning at an accelerated pace. I believe that when God’s hand is in an event, the event appears absurd. It appears absurd so that we will notice just how ridiculous it all is, so we have the opportunity to change the ridiculous situation. There are so many things that are wrong with the world I believe we are now living in constant absurdity, so somehow God’s hand is in the injustice.
A while ago, I was contemplating getting more involved in the political arena or a worthy cause. As I was researching what “cause” to champion, I had the realization that the whole world is one giant “cause”. Where on earth would one start? Would you march on Wall Street with the Occupy Wall Street movement? Should one join in the fight to stop cruelty to animals? Should one shout off the rooftop about the injustice towards women? Everywhere I turned I saw injustice. How would you choose which injustice to fight against? I couldn’t. I chose instead to turn to peace. I chose to focus on love. I chose to meditate on the love I know exists in people’s hearts even though it’s hard to see. I chose to believe that in God’s wisdom, the injustice was purposeful. I chose to believe that I simply did not have enough knowledge to understand the truth. The truth is that all this injustice must mean that we are about to have a REALIZATION of all of mankind, a realization that will bring about the truth. The truth is that we must love one another as ourselves. We are ALL ONE! Whatever you do to someone else you are actually doing to yourself.
We are all one starts with each one of us. If you don’t like the absurdity of the world in which we live, then start sending love out to everyone. Instead of thinking of the people that you DON’T like, or the people that are stressing you out, think of those you love, it’s a choice. Choose love. Then whenever you think of those that you are having problems with, think of them as yourself, think of them with love. We can never change the world until we change the individuals in the world. Start with you.
How do we change it all ? Love yourself, love your family, love your friends, love those you don’t like, and love those you don’t even know. Send love into the world instead of sending more hateful thoughts. There are enough hateful, disappointed, judgmental thoughts in the world without adding to it. Stop focusing on all the negativity and start to focus on those things that make you feel good. When enough people focus on love, the evil ones can no longer control the world. I often think about what Jesus said, “the meek will inherit the earth”, and I think that we are living in the time that this vision becomes a reality. Do I know exactly how the meek will inherit the earth? No. But I do know it’s coming. The meek are those that are humble, long-suffering, unpretentious, mild, gentle, and adaptable, those are the ones that will inherit the earth. The time is upon us, are you among the meek?
Loving, compassionate and caring beings will inherit the earth. Be one now.

Its New Years eve a night that is typically for celebrating an upcoming New Year or letting go of the old one. Many people will go out and about, toast at midnight for a new beginning. There is nothing wrong with taking the night off and celebrating the opportunity to start fresh, but why don’t we celebrate every moment of our lives as a new beginning? Every single passing moment is one in which we could start over. The problem is we humans do not realize it and we don’t celebrate the opportunity to change is in every moment. To change your life, it only takes a moment, not a year. If we could just take the attitude every day that we have on New Years eve, we would change our lives for the better in every moment. Every day we have an opportunity to love ourselves more, to love our families more, to love our lives more, but we wait until New Years eve to do it. Unfortunately, most people say goodbye to the old year as if they can slough it off or as if it was harmful to them. The pain you experienced this past year was purposeful, you just need to figure out its purpose.

Every moment, every day, every month, every year is our teacher. Whether it’s the beginning, middle or end of the year it doesn’t matter, it’s an opportunity for growth.

So, tomorrow take the moments, celebrate them and change your life. Tomorrow is the day, tomorrow any single moment can be a life changer. Change your life.

God bless and be joyous

I don’t know about you but everyday my life is filled with opportunities for anxiety. My trigger for anxiety is unfairness, and injustice. Maybe you’ve experienced anxiety in your workplace, over politics/politicians, religious beliefs, Wall Street, the Banksters maybe just your dysfunctional family. It amazes me how much stress and anxiety we are all under every day of our lives. Some days we tolerate it. Some days we ignore it. And some days it overwhelms us. What do you do when the anxiety of daily living gets too much to handle? Its no wonder there is an abundance of anger hovering over our lives.

For me, my anxiety climbs to an all time high over injustice. Whether its injustice in my personal or professional life or the injustice that our courts, politicians, police, or large corporations inflict on us, Im always ready to storm the building and go Joan of Arc on those inflicting the injustice. The Supreme Court ruling that Corporations were people was enough to make me go postal. Fortunately, I didn’t.

So, with all the opportunities for anxiety and stress in our lives, what do we do with it? How do you process the anxiety of daily life, let alone the stress of a tragedy? What on earth does a person do when the anxiety is so extreme that you can no longer cope with it?

The first step to get rid of the anxiety is to literally release it. Cry it out. Cry until you convulse. Cry until you can’t cry anymore, then rejoice that you just released some of the anxiety.

Secondly, you must learn to stay in the moment. Stress comes from thinking about past actions or worrying about future conversations or confrontations. In each moment of your life, breathe and realize that the hell your living is just a state of mind. Being able to step back and take a moment to realize that fact is very difficult. When anxiety and stress starts to swirl in your brain, look around you to see what this one moment in time is presenting. Chances are you are probably sitting or lying in your bed, repeating a bad moment over & over again in your head. You live that past moment, or a past conversation until you pass out exhausted from the moment replaying itself in your head. You go over in your head either what you wished you’d say or what you are going to say when given the opportunity. Late night swirling of thought never accomplishes anything but causing more anxiety. Try to let it go. Pay attention and realize that the stress you are feeling is from another moment in time, and not the moment you are living.
Try to use my philosophy of “single thought therapy”. When you are having a bad thought, just take a moment and change that thought. Change your anxiety, one thought at a time. You don’t have more than one thought anyway so you might as well make it a thought that makes you feel good. Thoughts are a choice. No one is standing over you with a big stick threatening you to have the thought they want you to have. There are no thought police…at least not yet.

Anxiety opportunities are at an all time high. You need a system in place that helps you to process it. Release it, rejoice in the fact that you released it and then celebrate that you let it go. Do a little dance after every good cry. Toast yourself with a nice glass or wine or juice for letting it all go. Take ten minutes a day and quiet your thoughts. Try to NOT think for a short period of time. Some call that meditation, I call it silent time. You have to spend time not thinking to help you be able to think of the best solution for your stress !

Anxiety runs rampant, so run away from it with silence, joyously releasing it and celebrating the fact that you released it !

Suffering, whether it’s physical, mental or emotional, is always purposeful. As we are going through the turmoil its so difficult to understand the why behind the pain. You try to be a good person, live your life with integrity and yet crap always happens to you. How can that be? What on earth was God thinking? Why would suffering be a good thing?
I’ve recently gone through a very difficult time. My mind, body and spirit were all in pain. My suffering was due to betrayal. Its always a trigger for me. Betrayal causes me to get angry, saddened and heart broken. I experienced every negative emotion possible when I found out I was, once again, betrayed. I suffered with insomnia, overeating, anxiety and depression. So, how could this possibly have been a good thing for me?

After I processed the pain, by process i mean releasing the emotions from my physical body, I stood back and observed all the details of what happened. I stood back to look for the gift I was receiving from the pain. No matter what ostensible negative events occur in your life there is always a gift buried under the agony. There is always an opportunity to learn something about yourself. The person that inflicts the most pain upon you, is giving you the greatest gift, you just need to have the right perspective about it in order to see it! When you figure out the gift, you will have a realization of why the suffering IS A GOOD THING !

How do you figure out the gift? Start by zooming out from the pain, and looking at the bigger picture. For me, I had to zoom out to look at the pattern of betrayal. I looked at all the times I have felt betrayed. I looked at all the problems I have had in the past with relationships, and I discovered that all the issues I have with mankind and betrayal, were from inside me. For the last two years, I have had one person after another betray me, so I realized that it can’t possibly be all those other people causing me to have this pain. I realized that no matter where I worked, who I befriended, or who I worked with, I was going to be betrayed. Betrayal was a pattern and I had to take the time to figure out why this pattern existed in my soul Understanding the why would stop the betrayals.
Once I realized that the betrayals were all caused by something deeply internal, then I had a chance to find the gift. Turns out the gift was a realization that my soul wanted to heal the karma from past betrayals so my subconscious kept bringing people into my life that would betray me so I could heal my karma. I, subconsciously, wanted this drama in my life just so i could finally love myself enough that I would no longer need to bring people in my life to show me how little I respected myself. Because I didn’t love myself enough, I was betraying myself, which kept bringing in the betrayers. We always bring people into our lives to show us ourselves. That’s the gift, and the good thing.

Another gift from my betrayer was to help me realize what I really wanted in my life by discovering what I don’t want. Because of that I have made a choice to completely change my life again. I will be going in another direction entirely based on this suffering. I plan on doing something I’ve been talking about doing for quite a long time.
( more to follow on this once the plans are solidified) The suffering motivated me to pursue a dream. My betrayer/s gave me a great gift, the gift of freedom. And that’s a good thing.

Anytime you suffer, there is a very good reason for it. Its not because you are a victim of others cruelty, but its because your soul wants the opportunity to uncover a truth about yourself. You can’t know who you are, until you know who you are not. There are layers and layers of the soul that need to be revealed. The deeper the layer, the more painful the opportunity for soul growth. God is not creating the situation to make you suffer, your higher consciousness is creating the situation so you can heal. That’s why suffering is a good thing.

Boy, just when you think you have life all figured out, it does a complete 180 ! I am back doing sessions again. For a short time, I will also be seeing clients in person. At this time, I can’t divulge the changes in my life but suffice it to say, its life changing. As soon as I can, I will shout from the rooftop the good news but for now, I will be cryptic and say its all good !

Because of this upcoming life changing event, and because of my interest in helping out during the holidays, and the difficult financial times, I am offering special pricing on my sessions.

1 hr. phone sessions : $ 100.00 and 1/2 hr. phone session : $ 50.

In person session cost will remain the same: $ 200.00

If you have had a session recently you will receive the same discount on your next session.

If you would like to schedule a session, please email: help@pamelabeaty.net

I’m excited to be physically able to do sessions again.

have a great day ! More news to follow….

When you make a decision to do something new in your life and then it doesn’t go the way you had hoped, you think you’ve made a mistake. You haven’t. Instead, you’ve learned something about yourself. Going down the supposed wrong path has just given you the opportunity to learn something about yourself. You can’t know who you are until you know who you’re not !

Recently, I made a decision to try to take the easy path towards a career that I knew I didn’t want. I talked myself into believing I needed a “secure, safe” job in order to guarantee my financial future. In the past several years, along with working as an empathic intuitive, I had been pursuing the dream of creating and writing movies and television shows. I had more rejections than I can count but I didn’t let those rejections deter me from my dream. But, after so many years of trying I thought that I should have a back up plan. So, I took a job that would have guaranteed my financial future. It wasn’t at all what I wanted but it was a back up in case what I really wanted didn’t happen. I thought I had figured out a way to change my life for the better. I knew with certainty that I was going in a whole different direction in my life. I was settling for a job that I thought would give me security and peace of mind. I was 100% wrong !

I took the job because I thought it was both logical and safe. I took the job because for the first time in my life, I was going to stop taking risks and do something that was logical. Over the last six months I have learned that risk taking is my life. I am just not the type of person that doesn’t take risks. I had convinced myself that IF one of my projects did not sell, then at least I wouldn’t die destitute. Through this whole process I have learned that I would rather be poor and a writer/creator than to live a non-risk taking life.

I am an adventurer. I am a creative soul. I am a hermit. I am God’s voice when I write. I am gifted with God’s creativity. I am NOT an ordinary person with an ordinary job. I did not incarnate to live life safely. I am a risk taker. I am controversial. I am that little piece of God that forces you to look at who you are. I cannot be that person if I am not pushing the envelope of truth. I came into the body to shake up the world, and if I have to live a life of poverty to do it, then I will. Mother Theresa was and will always be one of the most influential beings on this planet, and she had no money and very little material possessions. I aspire to be that influential.

I would not have awakened to any of this unless I had sidetracked down a different path. I had glimpses of who I was but living as who I am NOT, I quickly realized I needed to go back to taking risks and living on the edge.

Once I fully understood who I am then a door opened giving me the opportunity to go back to writing and being me. Once I fully embraced my truth, then the Universe sent me an angel to help. Upon hearing the news that one of my projects has a producer interested, I realized deep in my soul that writing is indeed my passion, and under no circumstances can I walk away from it. I am now no longer going to be working as a restaurant manager but instead going back to putting my projects out there, and promoting my writing.

Because of this new development, I will be continuing to do sessions because, that too, is who I am. Because I have embraced my truth, my energy system has been restored and I should be able to work for some time. I plan on doing small groups at my home on a monthly basis too. I love the energy of small groups and am filled with joy by the swirling of all the energies of spirit that each person brings with them to the group. So please SPREAD THE WORD, I’m here.

I could look upon the last six months and believe that I made a mistake by taking the job, but I know better. I know that I gained an everlasting understanding of who I really am, and a gratitude for myself that I would not have had without spending six months not living my truth. It was the epitome of time well spent.

Don’t be afraid to change your mind and try something new… you can always change your mind and go back the other way. But if you judge your actions as mistakes, you will not have gained any level of understanding about yourself. You can’t know who you are until you know who you are not ! To me, life is all about change, and the more you can roll with it the happier you will be.

SO, ROLL WITH IT BABY ! Go after what you want, but don’t judge yourself if it doesn’t turn out what you thought you wanted is what you really want. There would be no way of knowing that unless you tried it !

How many times a day do you think nasty thoughts about yourself? Do you look in the mirror and want to throw up because of the drooping under your eyes? Or do you see the beautiful color of blue in your eyes instead? Do you see the one tiny wrinkle thats around your mouth, or do you think about every other part of your face that DOESN’T have wrinkles? Do you focus on the clothes that don’t fit instead of all the ones that do? Do you look at the beat up living room rug or do you see the gorgeous flat screen tv hanging on the wall above it? What do you see ?

Do you look at the people you work with and see their flaws or do you see the aspects of them that you do like? Do you think backwards to the events of your life that caused you shame, or do you realize those events awakened a truth within you? What do you see? What do you think of yourself?

I awakened in a bad mood, on the verge of feeling sorry for myself and criticizing what I HADN”T done with my life. Hating the choices I’ve made recently, regretting NOT doing what I really want to be doing. I started regretting not working hard enough for what I want. I woke up analyzing my actions to death. “Why did I do this, why did I do that?” UGH. Its exhausting and so non-productive, SO I CHANGED IT.

I stopped in that moment and practiced single thought therapy. I didn’t like the thoughts I was having, they were making me feel bad, so I stopped in that moment and changed my thoughts. Single thought therapy. When you pay attention and realize you are thinking negative thoughts about yourself, you have an opportunity to change those thoughts. THoughts are always choices. You don’t have the thought police holding a gun to your head making you think what you think, so change what you think. YOU HAVE A CHOICE !